Living a lie

What can I talk about others when I'm living a lie.
When I'm living a lie. 
Breathing behind the mask.
Looking the world behind the shades.
Hiding the words behind the silence.
Smiling materialistically.
Crying hard with no tears.
Standing behind the bars.
Having thinking barriers.
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Filters everywhere.
Everywhere.
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Why people judge?
Why can't people trust people?
Where am I?
What am I doing?
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Standing all alone in the dark, waiting,
waiting for my spiritual guide,
who ties me to the humankind and 

lead me to the light. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++