Constantly compromising

When I was a child,
you loved her lot,
you used to play with her and
I compromised.

When I started schooling,
I wish you hold my hand and walked me to school,
you left me alone in the crowd and went to boarding school.
I compromised.

When I was in confusion,
I wanted you to suggest me the correct path for my higher studies,
you didn't spend 5 minutes of your time to talk to me.
I compromised.

When I got a prize and award in masters,
I wanted you to stand next to me and pose for photographs,
and kiss me by proud,
you never turned up,
I compromised.

Because deep down I always believed, you love me.
I always convinced myself by understanding your situations.

Saved a lot of greeting cards and rakhi's which I bought for you,
never gave it to you, Coz I know you don't like pieces of stuff like that.

I constantly compromised,
cried secretly 1000's of nights,
waited unlimitedly, missed you,
imagined you holding my hand,
heard your whispering wishes for me,
dreamed of roaming with you worldwide,
loved you unconditionally.

Quarreling was the only thing which bound us,
even if it hurts, I never give up quarreling with you.
It makes me feel loved.
It makes me feel I'm yours and you are mine.

I'm grown up now.
But still a younger one for you.
We don't quarrel like a child anymore.
We losing our innocence.

I wish, I ever say, how much important you are, to me.
I wish you hear it without my words.
I wish you understand me at least once.
No one can ever replace you, and I love you.
I always need you, always want you.

You always stood alone,
achieving heights of greatness.
You made us proud.
You grew up to be a gentleman,
and handsome.
I wish you never compromise anything in your life.